Purpose...

From The Matrix Reloaded

Agent Smith: But, as you well know, appearances can be deceiving, which brings me back to the reason why we're here. We're not here because we're free. We're here because we're not free. There is no escaping reason; no denying purpose. Because as we both know, without purpose, we would not exist.

Agent Smith Clone 1: It is purpose that created us.
Agent Smith Clone 2: Purpose that connects us.
Agent Smith Clone 3: Purpose that pulls us.
Agent Smith Clone 4: That guides us.
Agent Smith Clone 5: That drives us.
Agent Smith Clone 6: It is purpose that defines us.
Agent Smith Clone 7: Purpose that binds us.
Agent Smith: We are here because of you, Mr Anderson. We're here to take from you what you tried to take from us.....

Agent Smith: Purpose.

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Purpose...

Tried to think about it during a long journey to (I think it's from) the airport a couple of years ago.Thinking what do I want, what is the reason I am here in this world, with this face, this body, this psychology. Every point link and formed a circle that goes round and round without answer.

Finally, I kind of vaguely realized that the main purpose or mission of live is to discover the purpose. Still, a circle and no answer.

Merdeka Blues~

Never really have any thinking on the Merdeka celebration. especially this year.

Last year, I had the most wonderful and most devastated days around Merdeka. It's already a year, and I have long let go. Still, when sometimes think of it, you know the scar will never fully healed. That is what scar is for. Remind us. But let us aware that the scar does not only reminds us the injury, the wound, but the whole event, the pretty and bad of it.

This year's Merdeka...initially, this will be the date of the Cameron trip,but it was rescheduled due to some friend's family commitment. Although it makes this long weekend rather dull, but the thing is, I will not have a long weekend. Monday business as usual, with new challenge slowly creeping toward us. I really do think making the trip earlier, last week is a great idea, one thing for sure, we can escape the crowd. Cameron Highland is a ridiculous place to be if it is crowded. The little crowd last week already getting my nerves. I was hoping it will be like a dead town. Don't know what will happen to me if I get a long weekend getaway crowd. Maybe my temper will give me a stroke then.

Been getting to work a bit earlier last week starting Tuesday. Initially because I need to get something personal done,but also found that I can a bit productive as well, especially at this crucial point of system transition. I don't think I will do it for another week. Maybe next week or the week after next I should get my haircut, or should I keep it long?

Not very happy at workplace lately. Still vague about the reason. Is it something in my head or just something else? Strange, I never have difficulty deciding what is a problem so far. Why do I lost touch? As I mention in previous entry, the unhappiness in workplace may increase my productiveness, in the way of encouraging me to finish work asap and leave. This, in turn makes me adopt "做一日和尚,敲一日鍾" way of thinking. Work one day, do a days job. Be mechanical. Finish work, back to Fortress of Solitude. Go for tea with friends if there is any plan, read my books, enjoy my comics, update my blog, stalk someone online and live a regrettable day,waiting and hoping that the days when I shall have least regret will come again.

Sour, is it? Bitter? Nah...maybe a bit over. Maybe a bit fabricated. Well, I gotta be blue once in a blue moon...

Dramas

Now, I never chase new HK serials, the plot is so cliche and has nothing to do with creativity. If I ever watch, then it must have something special. Now still prefer old ones. Their new actors, like wood.

Taiwanese drama...cheap imitate of Japanese drama. But still full of typical "aunty plot" and some model that has nothing to do with acting. I rather watch TV Shopping. Never watch, observe a few scenes then brand as rubbish.

Korea dramas, all the same. Someone will get sick and die and people always cry. The pathetic part is they can cry for the same issue over and over again for several episodes. Again never watch, garbage that waste your time.

Chinese drama. Prefer costumed. Historical drama is the best. Realistic set and exotic location. Careful writing and plotting, plus authentic acting skill. Still, being so big a country, a lot of copycat or deceptive drama production. Must select and buy with wisdom.

Japanese drama, short, dramatic, funny, sentimental, nice and focus. Focus is important. If it is about medicine, just talk about medicine. Not like K drama, a medical drama is about two brothers fighting over one girl...usually poor and "interesting girl". Love Japanese detective drama. Seldom watch nowadays. No time, but will make some if happen to get some nice drama.

Hollywood drama. Totally different format from all the above. But average 24 episode per season makes is easy to chase. Current trend for new drama is either weird premises or procedural (an everlasting genre). Love House, like a Elseworld version of Holmes. Considering getting old NCIS as well.

Kamen Rider The Next

Get the DVD alas~!

V3 portrayed by Kazuki Kato, who had previously portrayed Daisuke Kazama/Kamen Rider Drake in Kamen Rider Kabuto; which happens to be my favourite new Kamen Rider series.

Though Drake's design in Kabuto is my least favourite, but I like how Kato portrayed Daisuke, and can't wait to see how he play V3.

Like Kamen Rider The First this will be an updated retelling or re-imagining the origin story of V3. Although the production is more realistic oriented than the TV shows,for instance, the Kamen (Masked) Riders really does wear mask, we can actually see them put on it and the costume is more like a biker's jacket rather than amour, but luckily they do not attempt to explain those not so logical element like, why they can change into their rider costume magically after saying "Henshin!" etc.

But it is always fun to watch tokusatsu show takes a realistic turn.

Slasher Films

Slasher films...who like slasher films? To be honest, I do!

Watching slasher films is relaxing, reason being we don't have to think. Just sit there and wait for the music cue....splashes of blood, some softcore sex scene and...body count. Yeah its relaxing.

All the slasher film series that make big names have one thing in common. The bad guy never dies. Even if he was a human at first, eventually it will become some supernatural existence, which will explain how come he can still walking around killing people after for more than 30 years?

The other common thing is, only the first two films will have more plot and back story, specially about the killers. All the sequels will have some ridiculous plot that somehow summon or bring back into life the dormant killer.

Three slasher film series that I like is, starting to my favourite:

Nightmare on Elm Street Series, staring Freddy Krueger has 8 movie (including crossover movie Freddy Vs Jason),

Friday The 13th Series, staring Jason Voorhees, 11 (including crossover movie Freddy Vs Jason, but not the upcoming remake) and

Halloween Series, staring Mike Myers 8 movies (not including the 2007 remake, but include part III that has nothing to do with Mike Myers).

Thanks to pirated DVDs, I manage to finish Nightmare series, as well as the original series of Halloween. Planning to finish Friday series and take a look at the 2007 Halloween this weekend. That is if no need work on Sat (hopefully).

Managing

How true...

Song: BEYOND - 活着便精彩

BEYOND - 活着便精彩
词\曲：黄贯中
编曲：Beyond

从来也相信有转机
望往事好象一齣戏
别要为这世界
太过伤悲
随时间经过我身边
赤子的心不改变
怎样开始
怎样终止
谁甘于一生都压抑
谁可不舍不弃
人终需相信自己
人终需依靠自己
曾话过
我活着便精彩
无论你
始终都睇不到我
仍然无惧
我有我的根据
是错对也不枉过
( music )

Emo

Suddenly feel very lonely.
Maybe something better left unknown, or if known,
better make clear all the facts.
Sometimes will feel something has changed,
or gone wrong and the most horrible part is,
you don't know where when wrong.
Have I done something I shouldn't?
Or have I not done something I should?
Life is short, every friend counts.
It is nice to get one,
always sorrow to lose one.
Am I thinking too much?
Or am I too blind to see the cause?
Should I go talk things over?
But the Asian mentality in my makes me feel akward,
or think it is rather dramatic.
Even if I can do it,
will I get an answer?
The truth?
I am ready to be honest,
does the other willing as well?
The rain, the cold, the work, the pressure...
maybe all contributed to make me more emo lately.
Damn, pull youself together.
Where has the Jacob that live in his own world had gone.
Thing is, does he still want to cramp alone in is own Phantom Zone?
Emo...

Talk about the weather...

Raining season, hot season, rainy days, hot days. None of them can describe our weather here. All we can say is, the weather here, in this pathetic country, is a bit Hainanese.

Think most of the people will know what is the very famous characteristic of Hainanese. I don't mean to insult, no offence. I also heard from others. Hainanese is said to have "海南瘋", in which they will suddenly get berserk. On second before he or she will still joke with you, a moment later she'll be able to eat you alive! No, they don't turn green or red or grey. They just turn face and / or table.

And no, I haven't get the chance to witness one. But is it legendary, almost getting an urban legend status. Try observe your friend, when he or she get to know someone is Hainanese, there is a high chance your friend will mention or ask about "海南瘋". Pathetic.

So, isn't this a very nice description for our weather? When you get in the building, the sun is blinding you and you can even smell your hair burn. But when you get out, in rains like God cirit-birit, and you will still get wet even you are carrying and umbrella....

Ding~

He Won!

He won!

Local news will getting more and more interesting...

When is the next Parliament meeting?

Who Will Win?

Some articles in the web announced that he won. Has he? The official result has yet to announced. Wonder if the evil organization is trying something dirty and stupid.

Have been thinking, am I his supporter? I think I support him, but in the same time, I do not think I support him. Reason being, I do not know his main agenda if he ever get into power. I support the space shuttle, because when their leaders get into power, they do things and never speak like idiot, something that the evil organization's minister extremely talented with. They have the style, the mannerism and the mentality of being the people's leader, voice and servant, despite the fact it is their first time being a ruling party in certain state.

He had power before. But then he sucks big time. Maybe because he was outshine by M, or maybe it was his nature. The same arrogant, quasi-fascist thinking that even M once have. He thirsted for power and need to get to the top fast. He was and still fearless. This is why he was set up by M. M always knows how to use certain people when needed and knows better how to dispose them as well. M's campaign on him a decade ago although dirty, but I can say it was a good one. Most of the people actually believes in him. That's he and his party still rule for another decade.

Damn, I never think I will interested to talk about this kind of issue. Am I getting closer to "Kopitiam Ah-Pek Story Telling" state? Danger, danger. Better talk back about Kamen Rider and comic book super hero next time...

Video: Dayo - 打工道理

The Tao of working class.
各位打工仔...please take note....

Video: 黃子華 - Love is deaf

This is another good one.
Wonder if it is a law to call your other party's affectionately by repeating one of this or her name...what Albert and Robert or Dilbert will be?

Bert-Bert?

Fictional Eg-
Friend: (To a lady friend) Eh...shopping ar alone?
Girl X: No la, did you see my Bert-Bert?
Friend: Erm....your bird-bird?

Girl X: Yalor, was there just now, and gone suddenly...

Friend: Don't think you ever have it...are you bloody sure you did have a bird-bird to start with?

Weekend Highlanders

Cameron Highland is for old people to rest....

This is my view on Cameron Highland. Although I'm still young and just got back from there, my view hasn't change. If I am to go to some non-air-conditioned cold weather area in Malaysia, I will always prefer Genting. Well, at least it has almost everything and need not to drive miles away for food or amusement. The buildings were built in a way that give people illusions that all is under one roof.

I still don't understand why my friend so enthusiastic on going to Cameron. I always join in, so I just join along. That is overall a boring place, and the only good thing is, this is considered a first time in few years that almost a dozen of us share rent and apartment to spend the night. Recent trip we got separated in different hotel rooms. There was hardly any time for us to talk and chat and get crazy till late at night, without being bound by the time, like our usual mamak gathering.

Cameron is boring, but the peoples I go with are not. I hate the journey though. Even though the atmosphere in the car is marvellous, but the curvy road, S-shape corners are getting my nerve. Although I just sponsored my car and let my friend drive, but I never enjoy the fucking road. If not for the hot weather lately, I think I may be fight to go to some beach or island.

Cameron is boring. Even the tourist there looks boring. No leng-lui to see also. But ultimately, I enjoyed this little weekend getaway.

Video: 黃子華-鐵達尼極限

Guess most of us heard "妳對我唔係好似以前咁" before.

Though not so agree with 鐵達尼極限 (Titanic's Limit), but it may happen to some people.

Exploring the female and male relationship has always been one of Dayo's best routine.

Conspiracy Theory

Hmm...heard that the blood fuel price will be reduce...haha, don't hope to much. It is less than 10% of the amount raised earlier. In other words, it is still fucking expensive. Well,

I think it is a conspiracy.

They may predict that even if the help the general election before their greatest threat can get back to politic, they are still open to the risk that he may get some of his men to step down from the seat they won and help a by election

Therefore, the increase the fuel price with such a major leap and it provokes all level of the nation. Then he will of course use this as his main point of attack in all his campaign to take over the ruling power. He talk about this in almost every speech, interview or press statement. In fact there was even a live telecast debate between him and one of their henchmen, the saliva-frog-face thing.

Now, what they fear most happens! He finally got his election under go. With the unseen pressure from around the world concerning another alleged conspiracy that they recycled from 1998 seems to be working fast and fine enough. They unleash what they think is a smart move of their scheme.

They reduced the fuel price, something that he promised to do if he ever get into power. But now they do it, fabricated with a reason that already been raised and suggested before during the raise, so that the main weapon of his become irrelevant. But, it is rather obvious after the lucrative feedback from the raise of almost RM2, they are now reluctant to let go and earn less. Thus, they can just settle to a pity reduction of RM 0.15. Yeah, they'll say "it's according to the current global fuel price", the weak excuse they used all the time. Worse, they think the people will be blind enough to realize their lousy scheme and will treat them like messiah, and help them win the election against him...

Wow, that is some plan! Come on, you all have an organ named brain, why don't remove the plastic sheet and start using it?! Bodoh! It is so fucking obvious!

Add Oil Everest Go! Go !! Go!!!

Friday's coming. For most, for me, it's the beginning of liberation, but for some, Friday is just a Friday. Everest kicked off, and now is the darkest part.

New system being put to use in actual production, how horrible, how uncertain it could be? Very. There are some that already joined the team since it's pre-production, there are some that are duped into joining in in the middle of everything, and there are some, that I do not know whether is brave, intelligent, energetic, keen or simply marvellous, choose to join in lately.

No matter in which phase, or under what circumstance you joined in, I salute you for your work. Because you are involved in preparing the one system that is said to make our life easier in the future, even if I doubt it is that magical. The part that you are in it is just superb, and makes me feel less useful, but more relaxing, which I prefer.

I think if I volunteered, I may be doing something out of the routine now. And whatever I might get involved with, I have a bad feeling about it. The recent change in the office, people leaving and stuff, makes me grumpier than usual. A careful observer can sense my sarcasm in my notes to other, especially the profession that I loathed. I am more impatient and will snap back if any of them come and ask me stupid question, which is the only type of question they know how to ask.

If at this time I still get myself involve in it, it will be either me having a stroke and my team half collapsed by mid-September, or I murdered all people that I see in office save for a few girls. Well, some are just gorgeous and need to be kept alive.

Tomorrow is the last working days of the week. For those that still need to comeback on weekend due to various reason, hang on. There will be darkness before dawn, and the night just happen to be longer, a bit.

Add oil!!!

TV: Royal Tramp (2007)

Duke of Mount Deer, or Royal Tramp is Jinyong's last wu-xia novel series. It is the most special and the best wu-xia novel so far. I haven't read it yet, but from the latest TV drama adaptation of it, I know that claim is not wrong.

The very first version of TV drama stared Tony Leung, and I watched when I was a kid, not much memory of it. The second version stared Jordan Chan, although it is still a budget TVB production with boring set and location, and heavily butchered plot and characterization, I kind of enjoy it. The third one from Dicky Cheung, never watch it, hate it. Heard that that plot is s fucking different the producer have to change the title of the drama.; and Dicky will always act in his annoying Dicky style, which is fun to watch when you watch it the first time in Fong-Sai-Yuk series, but getting boring and irritating with subsequent repetition if all his drama.

Now the latest is a big budget production from China. Well, to be frank, I don't quite like the producer. He is the one making Guo Jing sounds like Crayon Shin Chan in the 2003 production of the The Legend of the Condor Heroes. He is those that spend a lot of money for nothing, and like those cheap Matrix imitation gimmick. But he improved since then, I like his version of The Demi-gods and Semi-devils; his The Return of the Condor Heroes I did not finished, but heard that he hit the jackpot with it. And it is also the drama that give rise for Huang Xiaoming who played Yang Guo and later, Wei Xiaobao in Duke.

It is said that this new version refers to the book a lot, even the dialogue suffers little change. Well, this is a good thing. I always have trouble adapting to watch those known wu-xia drama in Mandarin, since I used to the Hong Kong production. But for this series, I have not problem, or should I say, I am cured.

The special thing about this novel is, the protagonist knows no Kung-fu. The closest to Kung-fu skill he have is only to escape. He is almost illiterate, and has his own set of moral value that is more normal. He is not those typical cliche wu-xia hero.Another thing is, this book main focus is comedy, not patriotism like The Legend of the Condor Heroes or romance like The Return of the Condor Heroes.

The new TV series has long ended it showings in 8TV. Due to work, I watched some and missed most. Considering getting the DVD...haha.

Accident!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It hit 120...but it's getting nearer to the toll plaza. My car is not built for speed. I hardly reach 130, because that feels like torturing the car, and I don't think I am comfortable managing it at that speed. Yeah, I'm a bit ball-less when it comes to speed. 120...pathetic.

But 120 is not slow either, I saw some red light flashes, hmm..the car in front slowed down rather early. There was still a distance to the toll plaza. Reflectively, mundanely, I stepped on the brake as usual, the car pulling itself...

Hey, that's not right, how come my car is not stopping? Wait wait, it was slowing down, just the car in front was not even moving! Damn it, I stepped with all my might on the brake pedal!!! The car is getting closer....closer...I heard my shit cushion fall of the seat...I saw Broly fell from the dashboard...I heard some random particle moving!!! Then...the car stop~! Phew!

I cursed. Cursed of the month - diu! Car in front moved again. I followed. The position of the car in the left lane was not right, hey, its head was crushed! There was a guy in front picking up some debris, falling parts from the car...hmm this may explain the random noise I heard just now.

Passed this car, the view was stunning. Another car, a white sedan, which from the front design, maybe a Proton Saga, which was suppose to be a four-door car, now I can barely make out there was only two. No, the car was not split into two, it was compressed into half a car!!!

There were a few guys shaking and pushing the car. I wondered if there's anyone inside. But judging from the damage, don't think someone can escape that fast. The the doors were closed. Of course if someone escaped from a badly crashed car, who will bother closed the door?

Some ideas flashes in my mind, take some photo and blog it? No, I'm driving and I just don't think it is morally correct, even for a evil minded ass like me. Get the plate number? But I don't gamble, and buying 4D is always the worst way to waste money.

I proceed with my journey, and hardly dare to accelerate. Funny thing is other car be a slow as well. Wonder is they were too shocked and reminded by the accident to drive save, or they were just trying to take the picture and spied on the plat number. Don't bother to waste brain cell on this and I proceed to my home with a recharged mentality of: Drive Safe, Drive Smart.

And no, this is not a PSA.

頂!

頂!又一個丟信了.還是一個好幫手.工作能力好的同事.雖然最近沒甚麼兩句.可能我在甚麼地方的最了他把...

頂!在這個可能是2008年裡唯一的一個比較開心的星期一,就竟然讓我得知他辭職了.頂!9月9號後我會怎樣?組織會怎樣?我不知道.不過卻希望他的新工作讓他有更好的發展.都快三年了.三年前認識的人現在還在公司裏的已經不少了.以前的日子是怎樣的,知道的人都沒幾個了.就連我比較服的光頭先輩都走了.

唉~前幾天post的"但願人長久"又得派上用場了.往後的日子,與昔日已面目全非了.新的操作系統,新的同事,新的氣息.但我卻依然如此.

發覺沒心情工作時反而比較有生產力.就是因為討厭工作嘛.所以就只顧者快快的把他們完成,然後準時的離開辦公室.但離開後跟住去邊度?歸家?或者到處走?

頂!一個人.做甚麼都一樣.不就是俺一個!
頂!
丟!

Are we there yet?

Are we there yet? No we are not! Maybe next time!

Ah~man, not again?

Why not? You fighter sucks! He actually freaked out in the final.

Freaked out?

Freaked out! Totally not in control. You see the Chinese chap? He, is in control. He protested for the foul, he protested to the line, he initiated the shuttlecocks change yada yada yada. He acts like a champion, a leading world No. 1. What our boy did?

Well, like our normal boys did...

Yeah, just follow. Just agreed. Just let himself being bullied, being carried by the tempo of the champion. And like our typical boys, he has the inconsistency curse!

But what to do...fighting in other people's place....

What has it to do with it? That's the heroic part if he succeed. But being a pro like him, that result is ... is... pathetic.

Yeah, all the people's hope...

People's hope? That is the exact reason why he failed. People's hope, nation's price, being the first of its kind in the country...all is hoping, and all is giving him a fucking damn big pressure like never before...any one will goes down for sure. Why can't they put it this way: "You already got to the final, no matter you win it or not, you already are the hero, contributing perhaps the only prize for the country. Just relax and do your best in the final. Need not care too much of the outcome." Like this I get he can do better.

But...

But it is because the naive bugs like you that gave him the pressure, and affected his concentration. The reason for the lost is not his skill, but the very people he is representing... You all are pathetic, fuck off!

Review, A Brief One: Batman: Gotham Knight

Well, I'm very much into Western comic lately, especially DC's (even previously I thought I prefer Marvel), especially Batman. That is because he is human, and the super aspect of this superhero is super rich and super intelligent. He is not some alien from out of space that allergic to a certain rock or mineral.

And so, I collected Batman Begin, and shortly after watching The Dark Knight, I collected all 4 80s and 90s Batman film along with the special feature. So, it is just predictable that even I am officially broke now, I still force myself to get the direct-to-DVD video of Batman: Gotham Knight. Who is not tempted with the trailer?

If The Animatrix is a companion of The Matrix Trilogy, in which the Animatrix explore the origin of the Matrix, what happen in between the first and second film, the back story of certain minor character as well as some other "everyday" event that take place in the Matrix universe i.e. people get liberated, so system error in certain area of the matrix and how the program fabricated it, a routine life in a ship etc, then Batman: Gotham Knight is slightly different.

It act only to bridge Batman Begin to The Dark Knight. While it never tell us the rise of Harvey Dent or the arrival of Joker, but is do tell how is the life after Batman Begin. The life refers to both Bruce Wayne/Batman plus his associated and the people of Gotham.

How Batman's life as crime fighter after saving Gotham from Ra's al Ghul? What is the people's reaction? In the people's point of view, what is Batman? What does the police feel? Do all of them feel that Gotham need Batman like Gordon does? The underworld leader in The Dark Knight mention Batman plays by the rule but Joker doesn't, so how and what is the rule? There are many many more question. Not all answered, but at least some is fulfilled in this DVD.

The Animatrix for Matrix did use back the voice talent from the film like Keanu's for Neo etc, but since Batman has a very strong animated series that has an iconic voice talent for the role, why bother to ask Bale to voice it? Better use back Kevin Conroy whose voice people will automatically associated with when they see an animated version of Batman.

There are six stories in total with six different animation and story telling styles. Despite the difference, all stories are connected, and has anime feel in it. Maybe that is because, except for the writing or story part, most of the production crew and studios are anime production studio, and all six directors for the anime are Asian, Japanese the most with one perhaps is Korean.

Trailer - 風雲決

Damn, never heard that someone is making this, but it is said that the movie will be released in July 2008?! Think we can only get the DVD here, if lucky. But the voice talents ma....like they casted it terbalik. I think Richie sounds more suit a big guy like Cloud, and Nicholas better to voice Wind...but it is the other way round in this anime.

Well, before the sequel to Stormriders out next year,
Now, behold:
風雲決
StormRiders - Clash of the Evils

Song: Jacky Cheung - 但愿人长久

This version of 但愿人长久 is the version popularized by Teresa Teng and later Faye Wong. Jacky sang this in one of his concerts. Interestingly, he later release another rendition of 但愿人长久 with new melody arrangement. The lyric, still adapting from 水調歌頭 by Song poet 蘇軾(蘇東坡)



但愿人长久
曲: 梁弘志
词: 苏 轼
编: alex san

明月几时有　把酒问青天
不知天上宫阙　今夕是何年　
* 我欲乘风归去　唯恐琼楼玉宇　高处不胜寒
起舞弄清影　何似在人间
转朱阁　低绮户　照无眠
不应有恨　何事长向别时圆　(月时圆)
人有悲欢离合　月有阴晴圆缺
此事古难全　但愿人长久　千里共婵娟 *
repeat *

Same, but different. Very different.

Is it too much to make a 500ml Iced Nescafe at 12 in the morning? Or midnight, depends on which kampung you are from. As in too many entries, the irony is back. Not enough sleep for fucking whole week and now is the chance. But I push it aside to.....do what? On line? Reading? TV? DVD? Rubbish.

My car is extremely dirty. Haven't wash it for almost a month. This month already broke, don't think I will go for car wash service. Better DIY. But as usual, I'm lazy.

In one hand I really want to sleep. In the other, I really want to enjoy more of the break time. Being conscious, although wasting time is a way making me feeling better that I not need to work for two days.

Everest is online next Monday. I foresee chaos. Wise man Hisham (that fancies Darth Vader but look more like a good version of Lex Luthor) know for sure there will be chaos as well. What I do is just sit back and enjoy the show. Come what may, I'll kill them one by one. Hisham's way is cooler, far more cooler. He just resign! But still he got caught and still be sticking around helping.

It will be hard to resign if Jessie is around. If she can talk someone out of it just via MSN, imagine what she can do when she is present physically. But we shall never underestimate Lex,I mean Hisham. Someone that admit openly never see eye to eye with the manager, and even had a row is Mak-ko will always get his way.

Interesting characters all gone one by one. Vince will be going by month end. Maybe because I did not join for lunch after back from HK, now I am not being notified for lunch. I don't mind, in fact rather relieved. Current lunch gang ma.....kind of not so compatible frequency. Things will get worse after Vince left. Better I stay indoor, or bring food from home, or da-bao, or better don't eat at all.

But, if those who left Lenovo is coming for a visit, please do tell and I will make an appearance. Oh I do missed the old days. It is still the same office, but everything is different. Maybe its time I consider to go as well...

People no longer at Lenovo: Carence, Serine, Shane, Albert and soon, Vince

People no longer at Lenovo: Chai Hong, Shane

People no longer at Lenovo: Penny, Grace, Pay Nee and Jenny.

People no longer at Lenovo: Jenny and soon, Hisham

People no longer at Lenovo (Malaysia): Nicole, Chai Hong, Sze Yunn, Carence, Siew Bee, Grace, Robert, Chee Keong, Albert, Weng Chuan and Penny.

Song: The Smashing Pumpkins - Ava Adore

Seen this MV many many years ago in TV, repeatedly.
Like it a lot, mainly due to the song is nice, the over all feel of the MV is just sickening and Billy looks evil in it! It's just awesome!
Wakakakakakakaka~

The Smashing Pumpkins - Ava Adore
written by Billy Corgan



It's you that I adore
You'll always be my whore
You'll be the mother to my child
And a child to my heart
We must never be apart
We must never be apart

Lovely girl you're the beauty in my world
Without you there aren't reasons left to find

And I'll pull your crooked teeth
You'll be perfect just like me
You'll be a lover in my bed
And a gun to my head
We must never be apart
We must never be apart

In you I see dirty
In you I count stars
In you I feel so pretty
In you I taste god
In you I feel so hungry
In you I crash cars
We must never be apart

Drinking mercury
To the mystery of all that you should ever seek to find
Lovely girl you're the murder in my world
Dressing coffins for the souls I've left behind
In time
We must never be apart

And you'll always be my whore
Cause you're the one that i adore
And I'll pull your crooked teeth
You'll be perfect just like me
In you I feel so dirty in you I crash cars
In you I feel so pretty in you I taste god
We must never be apart

Monologue before bed III

Thursday...always like Thursday. Coz Friday feels liberating. Next week, to new system officially launched, but there won't be a too drastic change in short time. Change will take place slowly step by step. Which means it will torture us slowly, till we break and go insane.

Recently not quite have to mood to work. Although I may sit there doing things the whole day, without even going to lunch, but the intention is always to clear all work so that I can go home on time. No, not go home, better put it like this: So that I can get away from the office on time.

In the office freezing like so very cold place, outside, firery hot like hell. I'm shivering in the day time at work, but the stuffy night makes me sweat. What is happening to the world?

I don't mind if it rains everyday...but I do have some problem with the sun coming out. Can it not wear a shade? The air is smelly, over moist and hot. It's like a giant microwave oven.

Maybe the God pissed that the land is rules by idiots. Or maybe he himself is one. Why not? The creator create some walking clays after his likeness , program it with his own breath and what is the outcome? The creations do not listen to him,in fact they prefer to listen to a snake! He created some almost useless animal where the only use of it is to be made food, but yet he prohibited his creation to eat it? He has a lot of followers...now you know how bright human kind is...

MUST SEE: Japanese Spiderman

Ah~ forgot to include this as well.
It's the 70s Japanese tokusatsu Spiderman.
Well, it cooler than the 70s Hollywood version and really should be remade.
Spidey has a transformable giant robot! How cool is that.
Peter Parker is poor and rides on a cheap bike, but this Jappy Spidey has a SpiderBike and giant robot!!!!!
It can crush Doc Oct like spit out sotong goreng!!!!!

Sick and Hurt

One get sick, maybe due to overworked and still have to work at home.
One got sore throat after reading a blog entry that better not being read.
One woke up to find that the chest is bleeding and the shirt soaked with blood.
One get burnt in the left middle by small bits of oil when frying sausage.
One just take too many MC and still alive.

Some people get sick during the worst time.
Some people get hurt for bizarre reason.
Some people still don't know why the get hurt.
Some people just damn bad luck.
Some people get "sick" at a desired time.

Sick make us cherish the moment we are healthy.
Sick adds up to our problem.
Freak accident tell us the God is mental.
Accident tell us how careless we are.
Too many MC, means Doctor can be bought.

Bird Entry

Well, bird's nest is no longer the men's underwear,
it is no longer the delicacy you buy in the Chinese herbs store.
Meaning you can't wear bird nest, you can't eat it.
But you can be in it, watch people walks on its roof, see fireworks blazing from it.
Bird nest, that we recognize since kid as something extremely expensive, but not that delicious,
is now a stadium, a sport center.
Bird's nest....
out of so many name...
out of so many design...
so many nature inspired theme...
you choose bird!
Don't you know your people has the most vulgar use of the words bird?
Bird being the second favourite organism to be used as curse after "his/her mother".
Bird, in some instance, almost have the same use as fuck in English.
Bird stadium - 鸟体育馆 = Fucking stadium
Bird thingy - 鸟东西 = Fucking thing
Bird place - 鸟地方 = Fucking place
But I still prfer 'Diu'!

Song: 王菲 - 約定

Another song from Faye. Love the lyrics; beautifully written.

The Mandarin version from Zhou Hui has a total rubbish lyrics. And Michael Wong's song of the same name is just a factory mass produced repainted version of his previous hit, in short, garbage.

Now this is art:
王菲-約定


王菲 - 约定

曲:陈小霞 词:林夕
编:adrian chan

还记得当天旅馆的门牌
还留住笑着离开的神态
当天整个城市 那样轻快
沿路一起走半哩长街

还记得街灯照出一脸黄
还燃亮那份微温的便当
剪影的你轮廓 太好看
凝住眼泪才敢细看

* 忘掉天地 仿佛也想不起自己
仍未忘相约看漫天黄叶远飞

就算会与你分离 凄绝的戏
要决心忘记 我便记不起

明日天地 只恐怕认不出自己
仍未忘跟你约定假如没有死

就算你壮阔胸膛 不敌天气
两鬓斑白 都可认真你 *

还记得当天结他的和弦
还明白每段旋律的伏线
当天街角流过你声线
沿路旅程如歌褪变

repeat *

就算你壮阔胸膛 不敌天气
两鬓斑白 都可认得你

Rather Strange

Rather strange.
Comic is never meant to be comical.
The comical one should be cartoon, like Garfield or Dilbert.
But thing is, for most, cartoon is the moving pictures show kids like to watch on TV, and our parent just group picture with speech balloon as comic.
Comic strips is not about striping, and it is published daily in the paper, a medium that suppose to be educative.
Cool looking cartoon TV show from Japanese is not cartoon, but anime.
Once again, our parents will classify all moving picture shows as cartoon.
Manga is Japanese equivalent to comic, minus the color.
And Man-hua is the Chinese (Mainland, HK, Taiwan alike) counterpart.
Manhand is a new local hip-hop.
Manhattan is a county that sell fish that develops the nuclear bomb.
Bombay does not mean "Get bombed at the bay".
In "Baywatch" only idiot will watch the bay.

MUST SEE: Bird's Preference

As an act of gratitude for Albert's comment for the previous entry, this is for him.

Bird prefer cartoon version of Batman:

Batman Intro



But for Spidey, and Superman, live-action is his choice:

SUPERMAN TRAILER


The Amazing Spider-Man


Enjoy~!!!!!

Trailer - Batman: Gotham Knight

Gotta get this!!! Somesort of tie in or companian DVD for The Dark Knight, pretty much the same concept like The Animatrix for The Matrix Trilogy.

Behold Batman: Gotham Knight

Mystery Drama I Like To Get

Monday night will be investigative Hollywood drama night. Just finish watching Bones in NTV7, followed by NCIS in 8TV. Rather like NCIS, colorful characters, funny interaction, bizarre case and not so incredible technology.

Funny fact is, even it is CSI that brings the wave or craze of this new investigative drama. I kind of like CSI less. Maybe the character is darker. You got some gambling cop, ex-stripper, take place in Vegas...it is rather out of this world. It's like.."Hey I won't be living there the rest of my life, what the fuck do I care if there's a psycho killer over there."

NCIS, although only handle cases involving the Navy officers, or related to it's jurisdiction, but most of the cases happen in everyday places, and the best part, bizarre enough. The urges of buying from the beginning the DVDs for CSI and 24 are long gone...Now toying with NCIS.

Well, they have around 5 seasons now, think it is easier to chase compare to CSI. Speaking about DVD series, wonder has House season 4 completed or not....

Why never seen any traces of Poirot? Already bought Jeremy Brett's Sherlock Holmes, and Poirot played by David Suchet is nice as well...wonder why couldn't find the DVD.

When gonna visit the DVD shop again? Hmm...no budget for them now, perhaps next month...

Song: BEYOND - 想你

This is one of my favourite post 家駒 death's Beyond's song.

The vocal should be Paul, the second best after Ka Kui's.




BEYOND - 想你 (Canto)

曲 : 黄贯中 词 : 周耀辉 黄贯中
编曲 : beyond
主唱 : 黄贯中


为何又一天 仍未与我通电
感觉太悬疑 为何难启齿
但偏偏想你知

旁徨又一天 期待见你一面
走到你门前 谁人陪身边
是否可讲我知

从前曾失恋 曾话过已长大
不再少年时 明明曾识穿
再不单思暗恋

* 这一刻我 千百样心思
不过两个字 你叫我如此

想你 你叫我太欢喜
装不出不羁 巴不得一起

想你 你叫我怎心死
只想今晚 拥你入怀
细说旧梦

adlib (last time)
cos i'm thinking of you.
do you know you'll be mine.
i know you'll be mine

* repeat

The Cycle

Never a complete cycle....

After struggling for 5 solid days. With all the frustration, the cursing (by myself, silently), the chaos, the idiots, I come to the hopeful dawn of the weekend. Weekend, need not to work, can sleep with a peaceful mind. I may wake up around 6, just to take a pee., and I rather enjoy this short wake, for it reminds me that I can proceed to sleep for another few hours, not like the weekdays, where I will have to get prepared to face the day.

Sunday is a bit complex. Merry in the day, gloomy by night fall. I will have to set the bed time, but usually will end up delaying it again and again. Until the time that gives me relatively little time to sleep,which will in turn cause me sleepy, not enough of sleep.

Then I will vow, that I will sleep earlier in weekdays but as predicted, this will not happen as I will delay it again and again until it is too bloody late. I will plan to get the "revenge", to sleep all I can on Friday night and wake maybe in the noon of Saturday. But this seldom happens.

The most I get is 11 plus, followed by 10 plus. Sometimes earlier, due to to other plan or appointment or hopefully some date (I'm pathetic). Last Sat I need to service my car, the Sat after this may going to Cameron, so far don't know what will happen this Sat. A part of me want some action for weekend (why waste it?), the Dr Jekyll part in me however, just want to stay at home with my books and DVDs and laptop (damn, why do I just upload the my whole fucking brain to a server!)

Well, the clock is ticking, the cycle summons me. I want to read comic! I want to have a drink with the old man! I want to take a bath! I want to help cool someone off, but don't have the means! I want to read Harry Potter 7! Damn it, I just reluctant to bed! Simply because I am reluctant to go work!

Wonders...

Hmm...will turn to Youtube to search for some funny video when bored. Fav usually those campy shit, and some jokers' idiotic take or edition of other production.

Should I not just change this blog to "Now Showing...my boring life with some campy videos" ?

Camp Trilogy: Must See New Superhero Films

Highly anticipated movies that will make Superman, Batman and Spiderman series weep (of laughter.)

These are some works that made Adam West's Batman looks like The Dark Knight.

Forget X-men, Cyclop is never as bad ass as this acid brain.



Dark Night? Bat? Lame, we have Puma or is it Pyuma?



Now, this not only super, its Supersonic! Five letters longer than Superman!



Don't know where to ger the DVD. It's rather motivational, knowing there is always some patethic idiots out there dumber than you.

Wanted

What do I want? What do you want? What everybody wants?

We always wanted to have something. Sometimes we wanted something so badly, we end up wanting something else that gives us an illussion that we get or getting near to what we original wanted.

When we thing our hope of getting the thing we wanted is too thin, or we need to wait too long for it, we tend to go the next best that is handy. Why so? Do we lost faith to our future? Or may be we just don't want to waste time on waiting?

Lou-sai, grilled fish need wait one hour.
Huh? then no need la, give me a Canto fried, I just wanna get full.
Ok, twenty minutes lo.
Fuck, no need. Char-siew pau la.
Haven't steam yet.
Ba-zao....rather go back eat biscuit.

I wanted to get full, but with a satisfying result from one of my favourite dish that I craved for.

But I gotta wait, too long. I settle to an alternative, since I do feel like wanna eat this, but the urge not as strong as the initial planned dish. But this also need to wait. Finally, I don't fucking care, settle to the presumed, most simple and handy. Fuck...even that not ready yet.

Finally, back to biscuit.
Jacob eat biscuit, that's EYT.
Eat Yourself Tonight (食自己).
他媽的!

Monologue before bed II

Hope is always associated with a new beginning. But I hope always come in the middle of things. Not middle, mostly after middle. Yeah, usually after the gloomy Sunday evening, the Blue Monday and monotonous Tues and Weds and Thur's working hour, I see the dawn of hope in the night of Thursday.

Regardless how hellish is tomorrow may be, I know I only have to endure for a few hours, then I shall rest for two days and then start all over again. Tomorrow's hope also comes in the form of an event that happen once every 4 years. Olympic!

So what so special about it? Well, for me is TV schedule will be a bit not so normal for the next two or more weeks. I can watch TV without the need to care if the show's plot make sense, or the director is an idiot. Sports program's plot is always the same and there is no director. So, I can become a complete idiot in front of the idiot box.

But the big event in August is not only Olympic. No, I'm not hinting on National Day. It is but a public holiday for me. I'm revering to the new operation system my office is going to use starting mid August. No idea how the world will be then.

Hopefully all goes find and some days after that we will have a clearer view of how future work arrangement will be like, and if there is any prospect for me to change job role. Better if no need to interact with the profession I loathed most.

Training, call, discussion tomorrow. Better let my tofu mass rest a while...

Blogging

You know inspiration is very very important. Especially when you want to write a blog that has no certain theme or purpose other than for own amusement or at least letting some friends know you are still alive and has access to the Internet and fingers still functioning.

So problem arise, when you feel like blogging, but just don't know what to talk about. This is especially painful if you have a boring monotonous job like me.

But in our everyday life there must be something that inspire you, give you ideas or a spark that set off a chain reaction in your mind that you suddenly get hold of something, a piece of mind that you feel it should be blogged.

The blog that you read, people that you met, things that you do, passer by that you knocked down on your way home, news that you heard, movie you like to watch. The content of your entry does not have to about all this, but rather, how all this affect your chain of thought.

Let say I read a blog about relationship, more specific about some brave and intelligent ladies dumping their boyfriend because the guys being not honest. From this, I may have some idea to write about relationship, or it may also reminds me of some typical Chinese drama series pathetic cliche plot where the heroine's boy friend being dishonest and the heroine discovered it, feel miserable and realized the hero, which she hated is a good guy and starting to have feeling towards him, or it may provokes my philosophical side and ask the question, why the fuck God is doing this to us...I can go on and it may be endless.

What I want to say is , blogging is easy, provided you have some time, crappy mind (everybody has it, but need activation) and the will to let your mind run and explore itself.

So, for those bloggers that blog and I happen to be a regular visitor, UPDATE YOUR FUCKING BLOG!!!!!!

MUST SEE: Thriller, Bollywood Style,

If you are bored during work, this is for you.

Sadly, in the 80s, Bollywood still think that camp is cool.

Yet, another joker in the cyber world has provided the subtitle for this tribute to Michael Jackson.



That girl actually waited till the piece finish only scream and run? Either too brave or too moronic.

MUST SEE: Kamen Rider in Thailand (Cantonese Subtitles)

In the 70s, Japan and Thailand has cooperated in producing tokusatsu show. Thus it is not unusual to see Japanese creation in Thailand's show and Thailand will produced their on Ultraman or Kamen Rider show apart from their own original creation.

This should be the Thai version of Kamen Rider X: Five Riders Vs. King Dark so they have the Thai version of the main theme, and some smart joker presents us the lyric in Cantonese. Try sing along!

Awake But Unconscious

Sky is dark, weather is cooling. But my body knows better, the time has come. Without warning, it cut off my dream. What I was dreaming, I have no idea. It was rather clear when this morning, but now I remember nothing.

With all my will power gathered, I acknowledge the fact that it's time and I gotta get up to work. Then I have refocus all my will power, to push open my eyelids. Damn, waking up is tiring.

With a half conscious mind, I gather my stuff and go take shower yada yada yada. I do not remember how I do my hair, get dressed and start my car. Did I start my car first and then get dressed? Or the other way round? But never mind, eventually both are done.

I don't quite remember the drive. The only thing I remember during work is I keep on working, and MSNing with some weird character. All this is so vague. It feels like unreal. Like a dream, a nightmare that only ends when the clock hit 5.

Even it is 5, still I need to work. This time with more conscious. That's why it is faster. But still bore like heaven.

Don't quite remember what time I left, but the sky still blue, and sun still shine.

Start my car the second time today. I am fully awake.

Get to my home, I'm fucking sleepy.

Diu.

Song: 王菲 - 邮差

Faye Wong's old Cantonese song, 邮差.
Not an ultimate hit of her, but don't know why I just love this song.





邮差
唱：王菲
词:林夕 曲编:adrian chan

直到细雪飞下来荡进远处深海
甚至两脚走不动先想到离开
直到你说不回来直到我说活该
拿下了你这感情包袱或者反而相信爱
你是千堆雪我是长街
怕日出一到彼此瓦解
看着蝴蝶扑不过天涯谁又有权不理解
看着蝴蝶扑不过天涯唯独怪时间真快
你是一封信我是邮差
最后一双脚惹尽尘埃
忙着去护送来不及拆开
里面完美的世界
认错旅店的门牌认错要逛的街
便当冷了想保存怎可以乱摆
没有你我的和弦但有结尾伏线
黄叶会远飞这场宿命最终只能讲再见

Monday + headache + sleepiness + blur = Diu!

My At&t password expired months ago, and so are half a dozen of other peoples' Id and password that I parasited on.

I left a whole chunk of work untouched last Friday. If I were to finish them that day, I might work till midnight and my right arm self destruct.

Prior to COB last Friday, just minutes after I decided to put aside that bunch of work, I saw the invitation to the training on Monday morning. Early Monday morning, 8.30am.

So, my agenda on Monday morning should be

a) Get another colleague's At&t ID to parasite, and in the same time call helpdesk to get mine fixed. Catch is, my office phone gone mad and I will have to get the local IT guy to fixed it, then only I can call to another helpdesk to fix my At&t access.

Damn it, why don't I just parasite some latecomer's phone to make the call first? Never really enthustiatisc in fixing my phone. No one can reach me now isn't great? My big boss can always MSN me and as long as the most important figure can get to you, other can be ignored.

b) Finished last week's work first. But that will depend when I can get the At&t access. So this become a variable. Worst case, get Shirmen to help. Well, just some orders get pend a bit, no one's gonna die. Even if there is, who will that be? Not CSO...but the profession that I loath most.

c) Sort out and prepare to work on orders that came in from COB Friday till Sunday night. My job, the preparation part is always to most time consuming and heart-aching. It is during this stage that I keep on thinking, what do they ask when interviewing candidate for a job in the team where the profession I hated most? Perhaps..

Interviewing Manager: Do you have a brain?
Candidate: No.
Interviewing Manager: Good, you are hired!

or

Interviewing Manager: If shit happens, and you are the cause, how do you handle?

Candidate: Adopt the Samy-Vellu or Barisan solution.
Interviewing Manager: Which is?
Candidate: Never our fault, always the others.
Interviewing Manager: Good, you are hired!

or

Interviewing Manager: Customer may be demanding and sometimes being ridiculous. How do you deal with them without offending them?

Candidate: No problem, anything also can.
Interviewing Manager: Promise them anything, how do you fulfill them?
Candidate: Let other department settle and blame them if fail.
Interviewing Manager: Good, you are hired!

++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

So three agendas.

But at the end, only manage to get one and a half done. I called the help desk, sort out some last week's work and pass them to Shirmen, and during the training, I get to parasite another dude's ID...wahahaha~

But that already cost me one hour of sleep time! I got up an hour earlier, blur blur dei drive to office, blur blur dey with headache and heavy eyelids and yawn every one or two minutes. Until I packed and left the office. Monday + headache + sleepiness + blur = Diu!

Lucky fresh work for today is not that much. Hopefully can clear most pending work tomorrow.

If anyone from the team above happen to read this, and get offended...Hey, you won't unless it is the truth, right? Since the truth always hurt....wakakakakaka~

Nothing personal strictly business.
That is only my professional point of view of what you are.
Why so serious?

Intoxicated but not drunk

Intoxicated but not drunk.

With half of bottle of Shiraz Rose in my vein, and the prospect of finishing it.But why on Sunday night? With the risk of hangover tomorrow? The Blue Monday?

Rose, not as rich and fruity as red, not as dry as white, with a blend of fruitiness and the illusion of sweetness. Well, thought I get a cheap one, but it is delicious.

Well, any idea why I bought this? Huhuhuh~

Intoxicated, but not drunk.

But how is drunk? What can be defined as drunk for me? Poor balancing? That's intoxicated. Slurred speech? Intoxicated as well. Then what is drunk?

Well, for me maybe it is a state where I can't rationale why I am doing certain things but still doing it, with a possibility that I may forget about it next morning. I may not able to function and think like normal, and the overall brain activity will slow down...well, that's horrible, and so far never experienced it.

The mass media has given me an ideal of drunkenness, which is getting into shit and regret it next morning.If that is how I define drunk, then thank God I haven't experienced it. The most I got is heavy intoxicated, where I still able to get back to my room, shower, dry my hair and sleep like a murdered victim.

So folks, please take note of my definition of drunk.

Why I prefer to say I am intoxicated instead of drunk? For me, you will only get drunk if you do not know that you are getting drunk. So, you see, drunkenness, for me is not physiological, but psychological. When you sense that alcohol effect is taking over you brain, and you are aware of it, and still able to tell your friend that he or she better keep an eye on you, then you are not drunk, just perhaps, heavily intoxicated.

Awareness, is very important. Aware that alcohol is tarting to work. Aware that your senses are affected, your vision may be a bit blur, you touch is less sensitive, try to bite your lips and you will feel less pain. Aware that you need full concentration to walk like normal. Aware, aware, aware.

If you are aware, then you have better chance of controlling your brain and body instead of the alcohol. It will be will power VS chemical. Interesting fight, and never a fair one. Most of the time, in most of the people, the chemical will silently crept to their brain and bang~! You become a alcohol zombie. The very evidence will be you will say that you are not drunk and can drink more, even when you are puking your lungs out and flirting with the big and hairy "jaga" with impressive body odour. If you are aware, you will admit that you are intoxicated, and most likely you will start ordering lighter materials like beer, or water, lots of water.

When I started to drink beers when still schooling, mostly during CNY or some boring typical wedding dinner, I will play game with myself, since my objective to the dinner is only dining. The game is simple, drink and maintain my control over my conscious. But it was a very hard game since most dinner only serves light materials like beer. And if I really wanna get intoxicated to the level that the game can be interesting, my stomach will be full of gas and I will have to play the second game - control the "Qi" and belch the gas. Well, it is boring and need more concentration.

Since for most of the time that I did drink, the most serious level I get is "Highly/Seriously Intoxicated" level, I don't quite believe to those bullshits that people committed wrong doings when they are drunk. Reason being, if you are a human being, it must be you who control yourself, not the alcohol. Alcohol is just a chemical substance that affects our brain activities. It is not a program command that makes you committing crime and so stupid things.

So for all the girls and boys out there, if some one try to so something bad to you when they are drunk, and since they will use drunkenness as an excuse of not remembering it or as excuse to be forgiven, you are free to cut their balls and feed it to a near by dog, or better to the drunkard.

Damn, the intoxicating level and made me lose focus on the agenda for this entry....damn it.

Elegos...

Don't tell me lie, for I will believe.
Do tell me truth, even if I will grieve.
Please let me drunk, escape the reality I live,
Let me just immerse, in my own make believe.
If I were to spend my life without thee,
There's only bitter, I'll never tasted sweet.
If I am to enjoy the morning breeze,
Let me have you, around beside me.
I may be a loser, and perhaps a creep,
I use my laughter to mask my weep.
Though I may be helpful when there's a need,
I am lustful and consumed by greed.
Or I may be playful and flushes you cheek,
I am vengeful, with all my evil deed.
Is there place for me in your suite,
Or should I search and wait, till I'm old and weak?
Until my hair white and my wrinkle is deep...
Until The Reaper comes and tug me to the sleep...

Boredom

What is boringness? Boredom? Complete wu-liao?
It is when you have tons of books, but never feel like reading them.
It is when you have dozens of comic you painstakingly search and hunt and allocated huge percentage of your salary buying but let them lay there like corpse after a brutal battle.
It is when you feel like sitting in front of the idiot box watching DVDs, but found that you have watched all that suits the occasion of boredom healing and what left are mostly some heavy artistic stuff.
You feel like MSNing with a friend far away, but don't know what to say. And not at all enjoying the awkward silence, asking a senseless question, making conversation.
You like to talk, but just don't know what to talk.
You like to know more, but afraid that it may turn out annoying, like a stalker trying to dig as mush detail as can, like a mosquito that buzz around suck the blood again and again.
You feel like wanna get drunk, but the weather is too fucking hot and alcohol will just makes thing worse.
You feel like going out, but don't know where to go, or with who.
You feel like you need new musics, but searching and testing in the web spells boring to you know.
You feel like wanna rest, but the fact that now is Sunday night reminds you that tomorrow is the start of another working week, in the month where all your leaves are freezed, and the only public holiday available happens to be the very last day of the month.
You consider sleeping, but the moment you reopen your eyes, it will be Monday, and you gotta go to work.
Sigh...boredom. Fuck you!